Relatable?
In terms of debt, I’m definitely not as deep as majority of the posters in this subreddit but would like to share something.
I was about -300 in debt through overdrafts and was gambling in hopes to win enough to pay off my debt and have enough to make it to next payday (fortnightly)
I had said to myself that if I win I would instantly pay off my debt to start fresh as I usually don’t like to overdraft my accounts too much
I managed to win about $500.. the perfect amount to pay off my debt and have a little extra to make it to next payday.
The perfect scenario, exactly how I planned. All I had to do is stop gambling and withdraw right? Unlikely. Of course I gambled it all back to 0 and probably redeposited (can’t remember)
The most demoralising aspect of gambling for me is that my own word, means absolutely nothing and carries no weight. Constantly making promises to myself that I know I won’t follow through on. It’s not even really about the money, gambling has just shattered my character to a point where I can’t even trust myself and am just a slave to impulse.
Trying to make positive changes now. If anyone reading this relates to this or has advice for me, let me know or drop a comment, it would mean a lot
Love u guys