u/Firm_cantaloupe-5314

I have lost interest in everything in my life at this point I have no goals no friends(only 1)and basically a emotionally unavailable family
I cry every night before sleeping thinking of how much of a loser I am

This feeling is persistent since months

I think I am depressed or something
I don't know I'm just 18 but I feel like I don't wanna live (not suicidal) but don't get motivation to even move from my bed

I worked hard for several things in thing and the end was failure as always no matter how much I try I always lose