I almost wish I could go back?
Does anyone else almost wish they could go back in a weird sense? I've recently left Christianity back in October of 2025. I suffered from pretty severe religious OCD and did a deep dive into the origins of christianity and realized a lot of things didn't add up. Not only that but that this religion has been so scewed since it was originally founded. But with that being said sometimes I miss being ignorant to all the things i learned and being a part of christianity. Yes I do have a lot of church hurt and trauma from growing up but it felt like I was a part of something and I had something to work towards. Now it feels as though I lack purpose. When anything went wrong I could say oh it's in God's plan. Now it's like i dont have much direction.