I 22F can’t forgive my husband 28M
TW: Miscarriage
I 22F had a miscarriage at 7 weeks in June 2025. I still haven’t fully gotten over it.
I’m always thinking about it, some times more than others. I’ve been depressed since. I just feel so empty. Like I have a huge hole that I can’t really fill.
My husband has 2 kids from a previous marriage and we have them every summer since his ex moved out of state.
They (his kids and sometimes his mom too) go on a week Long Beach trip with their grandparents every summer. My husband was unable to go at first because he had no PTO. He never has PTO by the end of the summer so he usually doesn’t go. I had my miscarriage the week they were gonna go, we both got bereavement from our jobs so he decided to go on the trip now that he was off for the week.
I was really upset at him for leaving me. I moved here to be with him so I had no family and was alone at home that whole week. I was so depressed and miserable. He also just didn’t really care in general. I didn’t want him to be upset but it’s like he didn’t understand why I was. He said he didn’t really have an attachment to it and it was so early in he didn’t think it mattered. I don’t know it just hurt.
We argued about it. He said it was important to him that he go because my miscarriage made him realize he should spend time with his kids that were alive. He said those exact words. I told him I was just hurt that he left and he didn’t even think about me he said that him staying wouldn’t have stopped me from miscarrying.
We made up, he said sorry eventually. He said he understood me. It just been hard to trust/rely on him or completely forgive him.
I’m feel like it feels like it’s just me now, not recovering from it. Do I need to just move on?
Edit: Does anyone have recommendations for support groups?
Edit 2: I’m really not trying to be malicious or get attention. As some people saw I lost my dad who was a single father when I was 17, my mom is now mentally disabled and I don’t have any friends since moving. I don’t have anyone else to talk to and ask about this besides my husband and his family which is why I’m here.