Feeling trapped in my own negative energy
I am a lurker on these spiritual related subs, but I want to reach out as everyone seems so helpful and kind here. The past 3 months or so, I have decided that I am sick of being so numb and void of connection and happiness. I have made some progress, but it’s like I am trapped in a cloud of negative energy. It weighs heavy on the center of my chest and my neck, and I can almost feel it in/behind my ears? When I try to be more present and content, the feeling intensifies, like I couldn’t possibly allow myself to feel happy.
At this point, I’m not even striving for happiness, I just want to feel normal. I feel like I can’t make any progress when this overwhelming presence of energy envelops me.
I could really use some guidance on how to work through this because it is almost unbearable, this presence I feel connected to me. I really don’t know what to do or where to start. I know this is kind of vague and doesn’t give a lot to work on, but genuinely any information or advice will help me. I don’t really have anyone in my life I would feel comfortable talking to about this.