Breastfeeding while grieving
Have you ever had to nurse while trying to grieve?
We just buried our dad. I guess I’m… emotionally spent? Pag-uwi namin, parang ayokong i-breastfeed muna si baby, kahit ‘di naman ako sobrang pagod physically. Kaya lang walang choice kasi hindi pa namin siya mapa-bottle-feed.
I don’t completely understand what’s going on with me, but i really wish i could just take a break from having to breastfeed. Gusto ko lang din matulog nang dire-diretso tonight. I usually love breastfeeding, and I know its incredible benefits. But right now, i just wanna curl up in bed and do nothing. I don’t want to be touched. I don’t want to talk to anyone, including my kids. Ayoko muna.
Pero wala eh, kailangan ni baby kumain.
Baka naman po may tips kayo diyan? Or baka napagdaanan niyo rin ‘to? Ewan ko ba, pero parang gusto ko lang marinig na hindi lang ako yung hindi feel magpa-dede habang nagluluksa. Nakaka-stress pa kasi ayaw niya nga mag-bottle-feed kaya ‘di kami puwedeng maghiwalay.