Down bad for my best friend
I 22F have liked my best friend (23F) on and off since we were 15. I just don’t know what to do about it anymore, we have such an amazing friendship and it’s grown into something so great over the years that I wouldn’t want to sacrifice or give up. However I really really like her in a non platonic way, but I actually just know we’d never work. We live on different sides of the country and neither of us are going to move, just as people we wouldn’t be compatible in a relationship and have completely different life goals (she wants to have kids (like soonish) and I don’t, I need to travel with my job and she’s happy where she is). But we quite often visit each other for a few weeks at a time throughout the year and I just find myself pining by the end of it. We’re both out. A mutual friend told me a few years ago that she liked me and was really upset when I got into my first relationship. Once that relationship ended about a year later the crush returned but it happened right as she got into a year long relationship. It came back about a year ago right as I moved away and I’ve just been thinking about her. It’s ridiculous at this point. I’m going to visit her in a couple weeks, we’re both single for the first time in awhile, I don’t know what to do or if I should say something. I don’t even know what I’m wanting to hear but if anyone has any advice/solidarity or opinions that’d be great