Mania, grief, stress, all the above?
About a week and a half ago, I had a series of very stressful information delivered to me. It seemed like every day, it was something new- a parent being diagnosed with terminal illness, no clue on death timeline, other parent has cognitive decline and will not be able to care for themselves. It’s I that will take over that responsibility but that’s a problem that will exist later. Next day I was told a minor family member was assaulted by multiple people while the adult present did nothing. Next day I was served papers informing me of a frivolous lawsuit against me. Had no idea that was coming. Add in that my job is emotionally demanding and I just haven’t been happy there in a long time for various reasons. Lastly, politics- I’ve never been this drained by politics, ever.
So, on to the point- I quite literally feel manic. No history of mental illness but I’ve experienced grief and while this feels like anticipatory grief, it also feels like more- my complete lack of patience, increase in irritability, my sustained attn is terrible, not sleeping (midnight post 👌🏻), impulsiveness in my angry reactions and just my overall intensity- it’s even bothering me. I do feel depressed, not overly euphoric. I’ve told my partner I feel depressed. Working on finding a counselor currently.
Any other recommendations? Should I focus on getting an appt with my doc?
I can’t imagine what this will look like if I continue down this path for months. My friends are grade A++ and have steadily been reaching out but I know I’m a lot right now. I can’t risk ruining any of my relationships due to my inability to cope. Help, please ❤️