Stuck in a catch 22
I feel like I’m in a bit of a catch 22. I feel like there is this natural instinct that makes me want/need a partner. It’s either something I’ve been conditioned to feel by society/ peer pressure, or something more primal. I don’t really want to be alone forever. I think I’m a good man with a lot of good qualities, and I’d like to find a good woman that I can treat right and share my life with. Seems simple enough, right?
However, I also know there is no real way to achieve this. Dating apps are NOT the answer. The chance of finding a connection on them is so miniscule that it’s not even worth trying. Also, I don’t meet single, available or women EVER. I live in a rural area and there’s just nobody around. I’m not ugly, but I’m not winning any contests either.
So I’m stuck with this feeling of overwhelming restlessness. I can’t make it go away. I can’t focus on my kids, my work, my friends, my hobbies and ignore it. It’s ever present. And there’s not a god damn thing I can do about it. I envy those people who can just be happy alone.