think I found the love of my life but I can’t like him cause I met him on Roblox
This is pretty embarrassing because it is something I typically wouldn't do. I’ve made short-term online friends before that either I or they ghost in, like, a few weeks, but I never, like, find romantic attachment or anything like that with them. I don’t get attracted to people online even if they are attractive. I was on some dumb Roblox voice chat game to debate about like basic philosophy stuff I don’t even really get the gist of, but whatever. This guy joins we’re the same age and we talk for hours. Eventually we friend and by coincidence we’d always end up in the same servers after that and talk for hours. There have been multiple times I’d accidentally fall asleep on Roblox VC with him. I know that’s such a loser thing to do but genuinely he was so interesting to talk to and he also had a very calming voice. Eventually we shared Instagrams, and I was really hoping he’d be at least ugly so I could get rid of this weird gnawing feeling but he turned out to be attractive which pissed me off cause now the feeling grew more. He started teaching me chess and I log in every day to practice and show off for him cause I’m his “protege”. It’s so embarrassing cause he has the most perfect personality I’ve ever seen in a guy and genuinely if we met anywhere else I would pursue him but because we met on Roblox I can’t. I think the thing that drew me in most is that he’s always treated me just as a friend not someone to flirt with cause I’m a girl. We’re exact opposites yet we get along so well. He’s smart, has strong opinions that differ from mine yet is still willing to listen and understand my view, he’s respectful, and he finds me funny. Genuinely I wish I had never met him cause now I’m gonna compare every guy I meet to the guy I met through Roblox. I know I’m a loser.