How do i break cycles of self sabotaging?
Im 18, yes i do understand its not too late but feel like i haven't progressed as an person for years now, sure there might be some minor changes but i feel like im the same kid back in covid times, taking all the easy routes and being a lazy bum everyday — addicted to games, my phone and porn. I try to be better but i eventually always fall into the same pitfalls, which just becomes worse and worse every time i do more progress of getting better.
Ive also completely flunked my college, i gotten into a good college and i hated my course — just completely skipped classes my parents were paying for. While being oblivious to being able to drop out. So i wasted my time, my parents money, the good college and the only thing they were proud of me.
I feel like i have good friends and family. They are for the most part understanding and supportive, perhaps my parents have been too loose on me because i was never to the type to cause trouble.
How do i get rid Bad habits?
How do i just focus and be productive?
Committing is something i struggle with, even with hobbies i love and enjoy.
Thank you for reading