I WAS REALLY FED UP WITH TELLING MY PSYCHOLOGIST NOT AS MUCH AS I WAS FEELING AND I ENDED UP SAYING SOMETHING TOO PERSONAL AND THEN I FELT SCARED AND IMPULSIVLU TOLD HER I DISLIKED HER BUT I REALLY DIDNT AND NOW IM EVEN MORE SCARED BECAUSE SHE PROBABLY THINKS I DISLIKE HER AND I SHOULD BE FORWARDED TO A NEW PSYCHOLOGIST BUT I DIDNT MEAN TO AHHHHHHH
I have a friend and they are so pretty it makes me feel horrible! Compared to them I am as cool as a trash bag... I just want to be them. They also are goth and are so pretty when dressed up. I love them too in their casual form, in the past I've loved their style, I feel like they would also be majestic unclothed (NOT. IN. A. LUSTFUL. WAY!!!, I DO NOT LIKE THEM LIKE THAT.) And it sickens me that it could've been me who won that genetic lottery. And their somehow insecure about their looks. Worse of all, I can't even get to their level since I can't just buy whatever clothes I want, I can't shower regularly, Im already too stressed to take proper care of myself and Im poor. I should just dissapear!