u/Fit-Character-3078

So im a 36yo transgender and 37 is coming up. And so far i have taken little over a year off from any form of socializing to work on myself. I did not start my transition until i was 24 and any form of intimacy etc before that was impossible for me. To not go to deep into detail on the process i had to present femme to receive the help i needed and during that time i met my by now Ex gf. We were together for little over 7 years and it was my first relationship. She had told me early on that she is asexual and when she moved in with me she was "willing" to sleep with me. Now to me someone being "willing to" doesn't really make me want to tbh so we never did. Not going to badmouth the relationship it was great i personally just couldn't take the increasing jealousy/mistrust as she wasn't entirely convinced that i wasn't into men or fine with not having sex. This was something i just should have talked to her about when i noticed it getting worse but i was an idiot and hoped it would pass. Either way she stayed with me for another year while she looked for her own place and after helping her move we kinda just stopped all communication.

Anyways i had spend all those years unhappy with the way i presented and the issues that came with them like guys shooting their shots and the amount of maintenance it took but didn't want to change it because it felt unfair to my ex at the time. So i decided to take a year off socializing as i no longer had any friends etc (very trans unfriendly place where i live) and started working on myself. Started presenting more masc and got back into weightlifting etc just doing my thing. Well one year turned into one and a half by now just about and with me almost turning 37 i just feel like my life has always felt like it goes on forever and days won't come to an end and now every day flys by and 37 years have passed. I went to a bar a couple times trying to get back into the groove of things but i feel like i'm some weirdo. It's mostly younger folk and people are like really chatty and energetic and it's just a bit much for me, it is just allot all at ones. People are friendly and welcoming but i guess i'm lacking experience and i'm already a person who rather sits at home than is surrounded by people.

Now i haven't gone out in like two weeks and i feel like maybe i should just stop trying. Just keep doing what i like to do, and accept i won't meet people that way. The nature of my job makes dating clients unacceptable (for good reason) and i would never hook up with a coworker in any shape or form. And my hobby's are all solo stuff. Sure i could join a gym instead of working out at home or i could go to a bookclub but i really don't want to read books i'm not interested in. And with the amount of people texting while driving nowadays i'm considering getting rid of my bike as i don't feel like riding a casket because someone really had to let someone else know the store was out of milk or whatever. Can you even get used to the loneliness without the depression? Or will it eventually lead back to depression? I know there are people older than me going back out to make friends etc but i have no experience. It's weird interacting with people when you care about their feelings after the majority of life just being "Do what i'm forced to do, go home crawl back in my corner and wait until i have to go back out" At least ranting about it was cathartic even if nobody reads it, if you did sorry for wasting your time.

So I have this American Pro II precision bass and it's E string sounds horrible, as in muddy and like the pickup is to close to the string.

Nothing I do on the Amp or preamp side helps and I have tried lowering the pickup and changing strings and changing the tuning to anything lower than E standard will worsen the problem.

(BTW it's properly intonated etc)

It uses a V mod 2 pickup (standard from factory) and it's a major issue as setting up the amp to make the other strings sound good will make the E string disappear in the mix and settings to make the E string sound anywhere near palpable (and have them in the mix) will make the others sound harsh and painful.

I have been thinking about just dropping in a 62 or Spb3 because I have experience with those, but I'm afraid it's somehow an issue with the bass, if that's possible.

Has anyone else experienced this issue with this pickup or line of basses? Did you solve it?

I have tried to sell it but when a buyer shows up and try it they instantly give it back and leave.