Please help me
So since few months I have been very lonely, not in romantic or something, but genuinely loney, no friends to talk to , no message or reels on instagram or snapchat, no calls, no whatapp, I have a smartphone but it's like a keypad phone, only used to call my mother,
I mean I do have friends but just for the sake of it, nobody chooses me or wants to talk to me
Even even we 3 are hanging out they just talk with each other as if I am not even there, eat things, ask and talk to each other even though I'm there no one ask me as if I'm a stranger, they will even talk to a stranger more then they talk to me
Even though we are together 7,8hr a day, I'm still sitting there alone, and it's not like it's been like this since all along, this is been happening since last 6 months, suddenly out of no where, for no reason, no fight, nothing
Even they talk to me it's either making fun of me or pointing me out..
Eventually over the period of time I've been very silent mo will to talk to anyone at all, just there in silence, and the thing is we 3 were the closest friends anyone could even have known, and suddenly this change,
And whenever I try to talk , I've been called a kid, overthinker, etc..
So I stopped taking initiative
And our family know each other very well we use to make trips together and all, and even on last trip , no one talked to me I was just wondering around alone,
I have lost the will to talk to anyone, I don't want to speak unless necessary, I'm not excited about anything, I was a big big big carguy, I love cars, but I don't get excited about cars either..
I need help, idk what to do, and please don't give all these generic advices that make new friends talk to other people, I know all this and i want to do as well but I'm still sad idk what to do i feel so lost..
I miss the time when small things use to make me happy, I wanted to talk to people, I had fun, I felt lively, please help, I never thought I would ever ask for help online, but here I am, help me ,
I just get emotional and feel like crying but I don't, but my eyes still get watery every few minutes, I can't control, I'm too emotional, and I hate it..
I do everything, I give everything to everyone, still nobody likes me, I know how bad it feels to be this alone, and how are these people so okay and chill with someone being around you and you ignore him like this, I just don't get it, what's wrong.. they only talk to me when they need something, and pretend as if everything is normal and once work is done its the same again..
And the amount of things I've done for them, everything went to vain ??!! I don't want to make them count i did this for you etc etc.. but like all the things we did as friends you forgot everything?? And treating me worse then a stranger ??!?!?
Ughh, this post is getting tooo long i need to stop or else it'll be 10x more longer...
Sorry guys if you think I'm being a bitch and crying over here , I feel bad myself, but idk I have to let it out somehow.. btw I'm 21M 🤡, a 21yr Male being such a bitch is insane right..
Anyways, if anyone understands or gets what I meant to say then please if you can help me with any of it i would be beyond grateful to everyone..