u/Fit-Click9341

God has been trying to call me, but I kept rejecting it because I felt hurt when my mother passed away when I was 15 and I knew God allowed it and when my father assaulted me when I was 15 and I feel like God allowed that to happen as well so I live my life disobeying him I have dealt with homosexuality the spirit of sorcery anger, jealousy disobeying his rules and lying. now that I am 21 I found a Prophetic scribe who has been trying to teach me about God she was also my boss and I was disrespectful to her. She recently fired me and I asked her was God done with me and this is what she said.

I am not God. I am who God sent to you to help you and you continued to disrespect. I told you I was going to do everything I could to help you, so when that time came to let you go...the blood will NOT be on my hands.

Whatever goes on with you and God is no longer my business. I will say a prayer for you.

I believe I am at my wits end with God and he is now turned his back on me. I don’t wanna go to hell, but I don’t like the way he wants to change me.

Last year August I met this older lady who is a Christian who told me if God sent ppl to her there are at their wits end meaning God is tired of them. And for me he has been trying ti get my attention but I keep turning away this month that same lady was my mentor then boss I wasn’t a good employee I disobey her rules and bow she has fired me. Now im scared that God is done with me truly and its nothing i can do about it.

This is the message she sent me

I was considering letting you work the rest of this month. My new budget starts June 1st and I don't want that up and down on my payroll.

You have been insubordinate the past few days after I have asked several times not to.

You have been verbally warned over and over...and over again.

Now you are intentionally pushing me...bucking my authority...

You have been unstable speaking of punching and pushing...

You use drugs that may cause you to think or do something harmful..and the way you have been bucking me lately, I am not getting in any trouble behind you.

I can no longer have you coming to my house.