u/Fit-Cockroach-6860

I have sufferred from severe adhd , depressive loop since last 2 years...my culture doesn't acknowledge tthis stuff...thing is this is the most crucial period cause have entrance exams for college , parents have expections but like they just always insists on to come along with them to there native place house almost every 2 weeks....the relatives are sick, come with me they don't even care how low i feel about myself , how i am failing in everything i study for and still do this stuff..they give taunts about not having friends ..i mean why would i ever tell u about them..you have micromanged me to fkks level since childhood...mom used to check my bad ,my phone when i was like in 6th grade..like how am i supposed to feel comfortable around you? I was the most talkative person ever and I am now with friends I am comfortable with but its so f-ing hard to socialise with ppl infront of them...i know it probably isnt my fault becoz i am such a chill person with ppl i like...and also they just force me to talk to their families like people over 40 what do i even talk about to them..i have less then a 1month for exams that decide my college ..and its the last attempt of it then too they insisting on taking me to their relatives house coz they sick..mind u im not a child and its not like I cant live alone..Feels like they delibratly control me ..they know my insecurities and just pull my buttons so well..i denied going but they just DO NOT LISTEN..idk what to do