u/Fit-Culture-2215

Wanted to share my experience as I am finishing up my last TMS sessions. I have mixed anxiety and depression, ADHD, and Long COVID. I have somewhat responded to meds in the past, but had to stop due to side effects of raised BP and severe insomnia.

I responded to TMS right away. I did go through a weeklong dip around session 17/18/19.

Additionally, because I had to "deal" with the things I mismanaged and procrastinated on when I did not feel good, I feel that the things in my life that I let slide were their own mini dips as I could see them more clearly as treatment progressed. These were things with my health, boundaries in relationships, paperwork, cleaning, etc.

I am taking a grad school class and have all of my work in 5 days early. Normally, things would be late, and no matter how much I wanted to do something, the initiation and follow-through were so disconnected. I was at my desk at work today, and out of nowhere, I actually said out loud, "I like myself. I've been through a lot, and I did okay." Normally, my inner monologue would be the exact opposite.

For me, it was helpful to pair it with some info on SMART goals, etc., so that when I did feel like doing something, I could execute the task in a way that made sense. I told my technician I am just scared that the results/ changes are going to fade away. She advised me to try my hardest to maintain the environmental changes and new habits I made, as that is a big part of maintaining remission, in her opinion.

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Did anyone make major life decisions/ changes after or during TMS? I've read that TMS can make you deeply introspective, and you should hold off.

I am starting week seven, and it was pretty clear early on in treatment that I am in a long-term relationship that is not supporting my mental health goals, and it never will. I live with someone who has refused for years to even try to get treatment for their issues and is behaving in ways that are constantly impacting my nervous system regulation, with yelling and tantrums. I have felt unhappy and stuck for a while, but during TMS, I feel like actually moving forward with starting new. I have also responded well to treatment, and I don't want to live in a house with someone who is eroding that progress.