u/Fit-Hearing-8595

I’m so touch starved, I haven’t been touched affectionately in so long, only teasing and groping by my friends last school year. I want to be close to someone yet I feel repulsed and disgusted when someone touches me. The only place I feel even slightly safe to be touched is the top of my head. I just want to have some feminine clothes and lay in someone’s lap and have them tell me that it will be ok… Yet I can’t even do anything remotely feminine… I feel so trapped, so lonely…