Struggling with balancing mental health and attachment with 12 mo old
My 12 mo old does not fall asleep without nursing unless we're in the car. She does not stay asleep for naps for longer than 20 minutes unless I stay in the floor bed with her. When she's awake she cries the moment I sit her down or walk away. She is on a solid food strike so she is nursing a lot despite me offering three meals and snacks everyday that she takes a few bites of then throws the rest or cries to be picked up. She sometimes accepts bottles but only if she's watching tv at the same time. She is waking multiple times a night and her longest stretch is 2-3 hours at the beginning of the night but she wakes up most nights in the middle to nurse for a minute then go back to sleep. As long as I don't stray from doing all the above things she's in a great mood. How can I get anything done? I want to prep more food for her but how can I if she won't nap without me? I want to exercise during the day but can't. I want to take an everything shower without scheduling it around when my husband is off and on the day when I'm trying to clean the bathrooms and mop. My mental health is struggling. I feel so drained and lonely. I have no family to help and my husband works 6 days a week. My baby is so attached to my boobs still and constantly yanks at my shirt and signs milk. The longest separation time we've had in the last year was exactly 1hour while I was having a dental procedure done. Any advice on how to cope? I don't want to sleep train but what can I do to get some more time? I baby wear already but she wants to be active so she gets annoyed in the carrier quickly. Any advice or thoughts are welcome.