u/Fit-Record7881

I'll go first, West lothian lass, 49, Hi!

My Scottish heart took a pounding first in a good way then in a painful way.

She always made a point of chatting with me after class, she was always touching my arm and complimenting me but not so much other women.

She happily swapped numbers.

My little heart was hopeful, this could be my first kiss, my first caress....

Then, boom, the rejection text came.

I cried more about her than my 10 year marriage to my ex husband.

I felt it with her, there was a huge spark, it was real!

Move forward to now, there have been other sparks with women who are poly or want to be friends first, non of which I want. No first kiss then.

I'm not sure how much time I have or if I will experience what I desire.

I'm putting in the effort going out and being more social than is natural for me. I've met some brilliant straight friends - women.

I just want to play the smallest violin for all the missed opportunites and unrealised moments.

I've been told positive things about my appearance and personality.

I read other women on here going through the exact same thing.

My previous post about apps and the scene was removed as I'm a new user I think as it followed the rules.... There were people who met their wives, friends etc on here. How is that if posts are so easily erased?

I'm happy for the most part. Just needed to play the smallest violin.

It'd be uplifting to hear successful love stories of how it worked out for late to life ladies and how folks met if that's allowed on here....?

Needing to know it's possible as having an insecure blip...