Idk how I feel
Hey guys,
I’m 18, moved outta home and live alone as of 3 months ago to pursue my dream of becoming an airline pilot
I study full time at a flight school and things have been going great as of recently
Since about a month ago, I’ve lost all my motivation. I have no drive to study I struggle getting in an hour of study and that’s on a really really really good day.
I can’t stop procrastinating so I took a break and went home for a bit
After I came back it was back to normal but since last week everything has gone so downhill.
I either get no sleep or too much either way I’m fucking tired all day long, caffeine doesn’t help
I feel like shit 24/7 and the smallest things irritate me so much
When I mean irritate I mean pure anger, I’m usually a very laidback person but now if I get a question wrong in class I feel like grabbing the person next to me and just killing them and daydream about it all class I know it sounds fucked up but I’m telling the truth
I’m broke, my family is tearing apart and my mental health is going into a spiral dive and I don’t know what’s happening. I used to love aviation it’s all I’ve ever wanted to do now I just wanna crawl up in a ball and hibernate till the end of time I want nothing to do with anything or anyone I sit in my apartment and stare at the wall all day long.
I’m a huge car guy and built my dream car for an 18 year old I used to love driving it now it doesn’t even excite me nothing excites me nothing is fun or interesting anymore every day feels like a marathon to make it to the next day.
Does anyone know what’s been happening or what’s going on?