Ever since "second puberty" I don't feel like I belong with in my body
I have always been very thin and active + i'm 5'11" so I didn't feel like I was taking up too much space. I liked being thin, I ran competitively so not really having any boobs was an advantage. I was never super lean, just smaller! When I turned 19 and my hips widened, i've gained at least 20+ lbs, and I just don't feel like myself anymore. I am 23 now and I still don't feel like myself. I have gone through periods of weight gain and loss, but even at my smallest, i've just changed and it really shows + alot of my extra fat on my body all goes to the lower outside of my legs below my hips. Is this normal to feel this way? I feel like a big oaf, and it doesn't help that because i'm tall so my circulation isn't the best and I get swollen in different places. I also still don't have boobs! 🤝 Anyways, I'm just sick of it. The over analyzing, the comparison to past self, the need to control my diet when I never used to have to. The not feeling feminine because I don't have boobs but I have a good fat percentage. I just tear myself up everyday and I don't know how to stop. Can anyone relate? How do I stop these thought patterns or is it all in my head?