u/Fit_Acanthisitta_506

Am Buddhist but my family are not and am strughling a lot with misophonia. I know a lot of Buddhist say to meditate in silence without distractions like music but am to scared to hear sounds that trigger my misophonia. For thouse who don’t know it makes my body fall into fight of flight and I can easily get panic attacks and so on. My family in general easily distract me so idk

my main trigger is people talking in my house and like over the phone and so on and so many other things, but I can’t get away from the noise, even in my room/house. I can’t move out and I have searched so many places and am on a very long waiting list to get help. My family is saying I need to figure it out on my own and I feel like they treat it as a burden. I cry so much and am CONSTANTLY in fight or flight. I’ve gotten rashes on my neck from all the anxiety and I’ve genuinely tried to get help but I am not getting any at all. How can I deal with this cuz I feel like am getting very depressed and burnt out by all this and I keep constantly think about d3ath, I don’t wanna d1e at all and am not h@rming myself or anything but it keeps bothering me a lot when am having these episodes. Please share any tips🫶 I feel so alone in all this