My sister & friends doesn’t believe I got Sexually assaulted ( SA of a minor, was this SA?,)
I’m F16 and when I was probably around late 14 or early 15 I was drunk at a function with a lot of my friends and some randoms who decided to PU. Well I got hammered and basically blackout but I remembered a good chunk of what happened. Anyways this guy I was talking to I’ll call him “Jim”. Jim and I have had previous sexual acts and stuff like that so we were pretty comfortable with eachother, so I am with him while I’m extremely drunk behind a shed with one of my friends & one of his friends and they are kinda far away while I’m laying on him asleep/ passed out & I wake him to my his tongue in my mouth for like a good while, and once he gets off of me (I tried shoving him off but I was also wasted) he said “your breath tastes like pink Whitney & fireball.” I was disgusted! I thought of this guy as someone I could trust considering we were friends since middle school and have been talking on and off AND he was obsessed with me. Anyways now the the present, I have kept contact with Jim more recently because I feel as if I can never find a man that can like me (I’m now asexual btw). But now more recently my TWIN sister has been saying I lied about getting SA’ed or it was SA because he only made me make out with him, or I’m dragging it for attention ( trust me I’m not.) Even tho I hate to admit it I think I still have lingering feeling for him and we have been talking as friends ALOT recently. But basically she doesn’t believe me and I know my friends probably don’t believe me either. Should I try to convince her and talk to her about it again, or should I just stop talking to Jim and maybe she will believe me? Oh also I would like to say that all of my friends are friends with Jim and they laugh with him and have normal conversation. I would also like to express the Jim has had two SA allegations NOT including me and they are BOTH forcefully making out. I really want to beat the fuck out of my sister for what she thinks about me considering I have felt SICK TO MY STOMACH whenever my friends mention a two man and I have made myself clear that I don’t want to do anything physical with anyone & she still doesn’t believe me…. But ya what should I do I really need some help.