How do I Get People To Understand
Hello Everybody,
I hope you are doing well keeping the dark at bay. Recently (within the last 10 months) I have been through a few very heavy events, I lost my job, my mom was diagnosed and passed away from cancer within 9 months and I lost my apartment because of the unemployment. People are trying to help but few seem to be able to empathize with the severity of this trauma, as well as empathizing with me and my condition. I've had depression formally diagnosed for about 15 years though I suspect it's been present for about 23 years ( I am a man in my early 30s). People keep giving me stupid advice like "look on the positive side of things" and other generic advice like "go to the gym" (I do). I am struggling to not look myself in a hotel and drink myself silly for a month straight (I've been soberish for about 2 years, I had a few relapses last year).
How do I make people understand what this feels like? How hard it is to just get out of bed? How hard it is to not ideate and idolize suicide?
How have ya'll communicated these sensations to close ones without scaring or worrying them?