I'm new here and just need to vent and need advice
I(24f) have been dating my bf 24(M) since the first year of college . We are now doing internship .
He's my first bf and I love him very much . He's my first everything . 2 years ago we started having sex . There was mutual consent and understanding between us and we have always been careful . I am pretty serious about him and we have discussed getting married and all. Last week I started throwing up and my parents thought it was just heat exhaustion... But later we found out I was pregnant. My parents did not know that I had a bf .
My parents were ofcourse pretty much very heartbroken and devastated but still they were there by my side throughout the entire procedure, at the hospital. They are still very upset and being indian parents they do not get the concept of pre-marital sex and now they want me to break up with him, and I will because only I saw the tears and pain in my parents eyes when they found out , I have already blocked him from everywhere . But I don't know how to approach this topic. My parents do not want me to tell him that I was pregnant, they just want me to stay away from him and focus on my studies . They think he was the reason for my distractions , but I was never distracted, I was always in the top 5 of my batch . Now they trust me enough to go back to another city where he is and they trust me enough that I will stay away from him . And I cannot break their trust again because I cannot put my parents through something like this again . I'm completely heartbroken because he genuinely is a nice guy , we are serious about each other but also I have to gain my parents trust again and they do not like him so there's no future for us that's for sure . I have to and am ready to do anything to gain my parents trust again , but I do not know how do I talk to my bf , do I tell him that I was pregnant or not . I cannot just completely cut him off without giving any kind of explanation. It is going to be very difficult to end a 4 year old relationship but I feel like I have no other option .