AITA to expect my situationship to pick up the calls?
I(25F) met this guy (25M), on hinge. We only spent a day or two talking. And he asked me out the date went amazing. We talked for hours, we kissed and we even spent the night together even though I didn’t plan to. He was amazing, he seemed so caring and so nice. We played chess together a lot. We were both passionate about chess. We used to meet every Saturday, bcz his lived an hour away from and he had work even on a Saturday. I liked meeting him on Saturdays, I always looked forward to it. I was very clear in the starting that I do want a relationship eventually, but he said he cannot be in right now but maybe in the future. And a month and half later it was my bday, and he took me out for my bday. But he didn’t get any cake/flowers/gift, I didn’t even blow candles on my Bday. I thought throughout that he has a surprise for me maybe but he didn’t. And it’s not like he couldn’t afford all that bcz he makes good money. He always paid for the dates even when I said we can split. It was just a normal date. I talked bout it to him later n he said that he thought of getting me something but he didn’t bcz he didn’t wanna get me thinking that we are smth serious. And when I argued him that ppl get cake/flowers/gift for even a friend, he apologised eventually but only after arguing so much. He said he’d do all those things when he’s in a relationship w me. I tried to break up with him but we made up. We continued meeting on Saturdays. And then came valentine, and I told him I valentine is not for situationships. But he said he’s gonna take us seriously. And I found out that he lied to me about his previous relationship ending 6-7 months before he met me, but it actually only ended 2 months before he met me. And I tried to break up with him, but he convinced me to stay. Eventually he stopped seeing me every Saturday and shifted to alternate Saturdays. Bcz he wanted time for himself as well, he wanted to see his boys in Saturdays and smoke up w them. And I was upset about it. He said that I have to be patient with him. But Later, And he said he cannot be serious, he’s not at that point in life where he can be in a relationship and we broke up. But we were still talking and again he said he’ll be serious, when I told him I cannot do it, he said he’s gonna take us seriously, and I said he has said that before and he said to atleast meet him bcz he wants to ask me(to be his gf) properly. Then Saturday came and he told his old friends are making him go out w em and he can’t say no to them. And he canceled on me and rescheduled it to Tuesday. And on Tuesday again he said he can’t meet me, and then later at night(our usual time when we talk) he ghosted me, I was worried my msgs weren’t delivering and turns out he was again hanging w his friends. And he called me late at night and told me he was w his friends, and he told me chickened out and he can’t ask me to be his gf. It had been 4 months atp. And I was so attached and we agreed to stay friends. And we were still talking every night. Except the times he was w his friends he only called me when his frnds left, he never introduced me them or anyone whatsoever. I called him as usual, and that night I was missing him more than usual. I ended up calling him 3 times within 2 hours. And he hadn’t replied to my texts, I thought he slept. And later that night he called me back, and when I asked him why he didn’t pick up he said, ‘so what? I can’t do this anymore’. And I cut the call. He didn’t call me next day, and he was the one who called me every day at first. We didn’t talk at all for a week, and that week was hell for me. I eventually had moment of weakness and ended up calling him and told him he was in the wrong to pick up, and he said it would’ve been wrong if I was his girlfriend but I’m not his girlfriend so he didn’t do anything wrong. And I got even more angry. But I didn’t say anything. Throughout this 5 month situationship I never said anything rude to him, I got him lil gifts throughout, tho he never got me anything. Now it’s been 2 weeks since we stopped talking, and I have been crying every day. Thinking of him, I’m also very angry that I let him walk all over me. I am getting this resentment towards him. I gave him my best version while he gave me his worst. Not to mention he was the best bf to previous gf, he got her gifts, wrote her letters but she made him do it and he eventually resented her. I think it’s the same way I resent him. But I also love him. I never told him that but I do. And I’m not able to get over him. And I have this resentful paragraph I want to send him but I’m not able to. Bcz I don’t know if it’ll be right thing to do. I really need advice on if I was in the wrong to expect him to pick up the calls bcz he’s not my bf, and should I send him the paragraph? He’s gonna hate me and himself after reading it and I think it would be cruel. But I also don’t wanna cry everyday and need closure. So am I in the wrong?