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It hit me the other night, the anxiety seems to show its face at night around the time it happened.
I’m coping well I think, I’m just wondering if it’s normal I feel sort of haunted, I’ve embarrassingly enough always been scared of the dark to some degree but this is different. I feel like I’m waiting for him to knock on the door or show up at my window YK, or see him in the shadows.
Promise I’m not going insane I’m just wondering if anyone else is familiar with this.

Hey, I apologise is this isn’t the right subreddit I’m just seeking experience from people who have been in a similar situation.
As the title says last night I witnessed someone commit suicide, I initially had the expected extreme shock and panic.
It’s the next day and I’m very jumpy especially at noises and struggling to stay in the apartment I live (where it happened). However, I feel so detached from it and it doesn’t feel like I actually witnessed it YK.
I’m wondering, does it ‘hit’ later as people say or is it different, what are your experiences? I have a tendency to suppress emotions to protect myself but I’m usually very sensitive anyway and I’m surprised I’m not more sad?
(Ofc I am upset I don’t want this to be taken the wrong way, but I don’t feel like someone who’s just seen this horrific thing)

P.S For context I’m 19. And please avoid being graphic in describing things in the comments ❤️.