u/Flaky-Breadfruit-110

I’ve dealt with this bull shit for too long. It’s ruined my life everyday, I can’t work for longer than 6 hours I can’t go out with my college friends I’ve lost friends because I can’t leave my house. I miss out on so many opportunities. I’ve tried everything, meds, weed, alc, therapy, counseling the whole 9 yard including exposure therapy. ATP in my life where I’m so done with this shit and blowing my shit clean off is the only answer. Why God did I get this why can’t I go out for longer than a few hours why can’t I go out with friends why can’t I operate. I have a huge trip coming up won’t multiple 10 hour flights and am genuinely concerned I’m not gonna come back from it. Any recommendations I’m so done with all this bull shit.