u/Flaky_Negotiation896

So recently I posted about being lonely on reddit, and thought no one would read it.

Was my first time posting.

Apparently a lot of people came into my DMs, had a chat with them.

Really liked the experience.

Among them there is this one person I talked with her on reddit for a while, then we switched to a different platform, talked there!

Really liked her vibe!

Tbh I hadn't thought in my wildest dreams, that reddit would be a nice patch in my loneliness wormhole.

Have planned up a meetup with her, like the plan is still dicy, but nevertheless, made a friend to talk to.

Helped me cope up a little bit.

Genuinely thankful!

If I'm being bluntly honest I'm not sure that I'll miss everyone. Let's be honest no one will miss everyone, but in all alignments of the feeling of togetherness which I got in these four years, particularly from few people. It's not me being special that, okay, "I have few people". Everyone of you has your set of few people and I'm grateful for each one of those who have their set of few people. I'm also grateful for those sets of few people who stayed with them.

Today's day in all neutrality makes it like a full circle moment and makes it feel like, okay, we had a great time. I don't know if college did any good to us, if life did any good to us, or if other things did any good to us. We, for sure, know that the people who were with us in all reality did a lot of good to us. At the end of the day that is the thing which matters.

I am a little overwhelmed, which I rarely get nowadays, but the sheer amount of joy, the lack of awkwardness, the intent of meeting everyone with a full heart, accepting everyone exactly the way they are, just makes me feel why college days become the most nostalgic part of your whole life. They are called the best years of your life for a reason because at the end of the day all the social elements which a human needs to feel happy were with us and we had a great time in these 4 years.

I wish I could rewind back the time and live each one of the days again, each single day. I just want to have that whole experience wholeheartedly again. But we know that can't happen. That's what life is all about.

I love you guys. I had a great time with you. I just hope that each one of you who's having their set of people at least keeps meeting their set of people once in a while just to keep that spark alive, just to hang out for a drink or something and have a good time. I wish that for everyone.

Truly knowing that this is one of the rarest moments of my life when I'm ending a batch without holding a grudge with anyone makes me so humble, makes me so joyful that, ya, finally a set of people whose maturity can be questionable but the idea of living life isn't and that's what makes us human. I'll miss you all.

To be honest, I was very hesitant and awkward while writing and sharing this to everyone, but this line of a poem which I recently heard came into my mind, and I was like, Fuck it, man, let's do it.

""उम्र भर ख्याली भूतों से अगर मैं न डरता, खुदा मैं क्या ज़ोर से जीता, खुदा मैं क्या चैन से मरता।"— अमरीश वर्मा"

To u/all

This week I finally decided to get up and explore places nearby to cope up with the monster of loneliness.

Well, i failed miserably.

Went to DC Chowk (guy on reddit suggested)

Saw people.

Had good food.

Had a lovely desert.

But the only talk I did was "Excuse me, can I get this please....."

That's it.

The void in me is about the conversation, geniune real human conversation and feeling of hanging out.

My college is just one exam away to end (btech last sem)

I feel after college, I will never be able to make friends. (I wish I'm wrong)

I'm in rohini, but even if I shift to more happening places like CP, that won't change anything I guess (and also rent there is expensive, i guess)

well, i don't expect anyone to read this rant, but thank you if you did!

I used to live in ggn for college, recently shifted to rohini, dk why, have job WFH, but still wanted to stay in delhi so shifted here, but have no friends here, and it's been more than a few months, haven't made a single friend, the loneliness has slowly started eating me. Dk what to do