Advice needed for trauma resulting in severe isolation
Hello Hello y’all 👋, I am new to this group but not new to PTSD. I had a rough childhood - not the worst abuse but mostly neglect, emotional abuse and severe isolation. Which resulted in a lot of anxiety, low self esteem, low confidence, self neglect and abandonment, and isolation.
I do believe that community and connection is one of the most important things in life but I struggle so badly with that.
Without going into detail, I essentially don’t have a close relationship with anyone. My relationships with people are very superficial in my opinion- I’m there for you and always supportive and loving, I will tell you the truth in the most empathetic way I can but I don’t feel I’m forming any DEEP connections if this makes sense to anyone.
I isolate myself a lot, I find myself only being about business when I do things like go to the gym, store, whatever. People will talk to me but I notice myself rushing the convos like I’m on a mission to do something but in reality I think it’s bc I’m afraid of being seen as not perfect or something like that.
If anyone has any advice, tips, suggestions, words of encouragement or truly anything that could help me progress in this I would greatly appreciate it 🙏