u/Flashy-Comment9410

I'm feeling despondent and I'm really just curious i guess.

Been married a while. Husband is an absolute asshole. Emotionally abusive, uses drugs recreationally, is a racist - which is quite a big deal to me because I grew up in post-Apartheid South Africa.

Yeah, I certainly missed a number of red flags.

Not too long ago, there was... someone else. Please don't judge me, I already judge myself enough.

Thought I had finally been "saved" but he's just like the rest of them.

Do the good men actually exist? The way my life has been, it doesn't really feel like it.

I'm sad.

No. I'm more than sad. I'm depressed. And I'm exhausted.