u/Flashy-Reflection229

Around June 2025 I attended this youth camp because I did want to become a member of this youth group at my church, at the same time also getting closer to God.

And that's exactly what happened. Youth camp felt so spritually fulfilling, lots of emotions, tears overflowing and it encouraged me to pray more, which my past self didn't do consistently. I felt belonged with a bunch of people around my age, whom I can share things to without feeling like I'm getting judged, even worship became one of the things I looked forward to, as well as serving God through the Music Ministry.

Until April 2026 came, my parents found out about my relationship with my girlfriend. My father told me that it's the environment affecting me, and that I'm being attacked by the devil, falling into temptation. He even accused my youth group of being supportive of this "bullshit", and it honestly has nothing to do with them - I don't know how it got to the point where my youth group in church got involved when all I wanted was to help strengthen my own faith and serve God with people I get along with. The people there are so chill, friendly and understanding, and a lot of them know about what I am and all that. My father's extreme homophobia just basically consumed it.

A huge part of me wishes to move out for my own peace and continue living my own life without the need for his comments, and I know it would definitely improve my mental health, but I still feel so held back emotionally, knowing that he won't stop "praying" for me.

My mom, on the other hand, quite has the same idea of it too, but she's softer on me and I feel more comfortable around her, because she said as long as it makes me happy, and that I get to make my own decisions in life (considering that I'm not a minor anymore, 18F). It's just hard for her to fully support me, but my dad unfortunately is really harsh with his words and it feels like I'm stuck on some middle ground.

I really don't want to leave this youth group, where I felt belonged. This very group helped me bring myself closer to God and I'll always appreciate them for that. Hopefully one day I gain their understanding.

My parents are unaccepting of my relationship with my girlfriend (wlw), saying it's temptation, going against God's will, and that I've already been attacked by the devil. I've tried telling them it's not like my relationship with her is affecting my faith, impacting my relationship with God or even my academics in general - but they've completely disregarded what I said. It almost feels like everything I feel and say are just supposed to be wrong and what they think is right.

It's so embarassing when I saw them on their phone SEARCHING UP bible verses (like you know - those verses about homosexuality) and saying it out loud in front of me. Mind you, I've never seen my father pick up a bible ever in my life, that's why I'm saying him searching up instead of actually reading the bible is like purely embarassing to me. Actually, he searched it up in like ChatGPT and it made me feel even worse. He got so mad when I mentioned about the different translations in the bible and he said that was bullshit lol. I didn't bother to tell him anything more because he doesn't really care about what I have to say. They put more emphasis on the concept of reproduction which only happens between a male and female, like what does that have to do with me at least in present time? They said my understanding of the bible was "generic" when it came to the view of love.

Is it really a sin to love...? 😅 I'm not even asking for their support anymore even when I needed it, I just now want them to let me live my own life and make my own decisions without having to constantly bring up religion into it to make me feel bad. No matter what they do or how they try to separate me from her, it won't really work on me lol. They're planning to make me move unis, head back to my home country separated from her yada yada, AND telling me to keep praying and read the bible as if I don't already do that...? and I don't see them read the bible themselves.

So, is this really a sin?