u/Flat-Current9920

I lost my baby. He was 36 weeks. We are completely shattered. We worked so hard to get him here. I lost a baby in 2024 and it took us a year to get pregnant with Sonny. At 16 weeks I was diagnosed with placenta previa after a big bleed that landed me in the hospital and feeling like we were losing him then. I stopped working, stopped being on my feet, working out, having sex.. I was on complete pelvic rest. I saw MFM three times for ultrasounds which I was cleared of placenta previa at 32 weeks. Thinking I was in the clear, my baby had a cord accident at 36 weeks to the day. He was completely healthy… the cord was wrapped around his neck twice and In a true knot. I’m completely shattered. I’m 6 weeks postpartum and I’m so depressed. My baby should be here. Sonny should be here. My heart is shattered thinking of all the life and love he didn’t get to have. My heart is broken into a million pieces. I’m on Zoloft to try to ease this depression but I’m still just such a mess. If you’ve been where I am, please reach out. I feel so alone. My husband is the most incredible and supportive partner a person could ask for. Somehow I still feel so alone.