u/Flat_Warning3613

Im 20 and I’m a couple months into therapy at my college. He’s such a good therapist and I’ve shared more than I ever have with anyone my whole life. I’ve shared how I’m actively SH’ing and how depressed I am. And he’s made me feel so safe and validated but I feel worse? I know they say you get worse before u get better but how true is that? I only have about 6 weeks left with him and I’m Shing more and I’m starting to lose hope with life
Even if I tell him this I still feel it. I guess I just want to know if I’m normal

I’m curious about if you’re someone that struggles with SH and has a therapist do they know?

Im currently 20 and have been seeing my college counselor for just under 2 months or so, I feel very comfortable round him and always feel extremely listened to, I’ve been actively SH’ing since i was around 12/13 on and off and I’ve only ever told one person, a best friend about it. Im trying to tell my therapist about it because i feel im getting to a stage where i need the help with urges escalating. Im pretty sure he knows i do it bc he knows there’s something I can’t share and so we’ve been talking round it just without saying the actual word so its not even his reaction im worried about, im planning to say it in my next session on Thursday (its Sunday now) i just need some advice really, im so scared between now and Thursday I gonna completely talk myself out of it. I feel like an attention seeker for even wanting to tell him and that I can’t be that bad if im willing to share it. Im also in some ways scared of getting better

Can anyone help?