u/Flavouredfruit

Had them in the freezer from Monday to Tuesday, put them in the fridge to defrost at around 2-3ish, took them out of the fridge the next day at 4:30, mostly defrosted and freezing cold, with some bits that are still partially frozen. Not rock solid but still firm, is it safe to cook? I saw some people talk about leaving chicken in the oven and how it’s not safe to do it from frozen cause it can remain at a dangerous temperature for too long or something along those lines, but my chicken was still partially frozen when I took it out of the fridge but needed to be cooked, is it going to be safe to eat?

Hi, I’d like some help on figuring out how to go about incorporating the shadow, I’ve read letting go by David Hawkins, and read through most of no bad parts by Richard Schwartz, and I think sometimes I get lost in intellectualising because letting go sounds so simple but sometimes in practice I just don’t get it?

I have had a significant amount of childhood trauma, I grew up in an extremeist religious household, my dad would beat the shit out of my mum constantly, my siblings would protect her as best they could, I as the youngest would hide in my room crying while covering my ears until 9 years old when they finally split.
My mother was like our rock because my dad was this terrifying, extremely abusive and also very physically strong person, but when my parents split, she found a new partner and various things happened like my siblings just disappearing from the home after he had choked my brother for not listening to my mum and I could hear the screaming from outside. When I went to live with my mum around aged nine at this point, she had completely turned on me, she allowed her boyfriend to be abusive towards me not so much physically in terms of hitting, but a lot of psychological abuse a lot of screaming, I remember once he grabbed me and took me into the shower (I was fully clothed) and would scream in my face and when I would scream back, he would point the shower into my mouth and the only reason my mother stopped it is because it was giving her a headache my screaming, she was extremely neglectful of me, and would often send me to random peoples houses because she didn’t want me, at the time, I was also getting severely bullied in school, not just by one specific person or a small group of people but quite literally almost every person in my year I was probably the most hated person in school, because I wasn’t an easy target I used to get really bullied for being tall as a girl as well, on top of this, my mum’s boyfriend’s daughter would also bully me both in and out of school with her friends and this one girl who at one point I was close friends with turned on me for her. My mum had completely checked out of being my parent at this point and she went from being someone who was fairly caring even though she also would be physically abusive towards me sometimes when she was still married to my dad. To hating me, not wanting me.

Then, when I got sent to live with my dad at the age of 11, he would constantly beat me for things like getting crumbs on the floor or accidentally breaking something etc..
There were many times where he would take me in the car and he would be driving and he would be screaming at the top of his lungs. Bare in mind my dad is a very big strong person physically which made it scarier, and he’d scream religious sentences at me and get me to repeat them over and over and over never ending, or he would ask me questions and if I answered incorrectly beat me, all while swerving the car wildly.
I remember once being at a dinner table at my cousin’s house with my cousin‘s family and my dad was sat next to me and we had had an argument and he was eating his food and it was really awkward because it was clear that we had had an argument in every two seconds. He would just thump his fist on my back whilst I was silently crying trying not to be loud because he would just scream at me to stop crying while beating me whilst everyone around the dinner table very awkwardly stayed silent.
He constantly programmed fear and religion into my brain, repeat repeatedly through significant amounts of physical and psychological abuse. This was constant, literally constant. I self harmed quite a bit in school, and a lot of my self worth was put into relationships even at a young age and I would do a lot just to feel worthy of other people outside of my family. Lead to a lot of toxic relationships etc.. I know it seems like a lot of info but this is kind of the overview of my trauma

The reason why I’m asking with the shadow work is because I am aware of a lot of different parts of me for example I know that I have severe abandonment issues which shows whenever I start to have feelings for a guy, if he doesn’t like me back it’s literally the end of the world because no one wanted me and everyone hated/abused me growing up.
I have a lot of envy, and jealousy, even when I hear my bestfriends hype themselves up sometimes it annoys me like there’s a pang of jealousy.
I scan peoples imperfections a lot because of my own
My nervous system still massively lives in fear.
There’s also a hypersexual side to me (probably due to religious stuff) but also a lot of shame and guilt not just surrounding that but surrounding a lot of my life.
I’ve done journalling and like I said I feel pretty aware of why I am the way I am, and certain aspects

But I’m struggling to find a clear guide on how I can operate and transmute this and use these different parts of myself to my benefit. I’m not trying to permanently heal from my trauma as I don’t even think that’s possible and I’m not trying to stay in a state of healing for the rest of my life. I just want to incorporate all of these aspects of myself so that I am working for myself and reprogramming my subconscious mind as well.

sorry it’s long but any advice would be appreciated, thanks

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