how can i start self-learning computational chemistry as a 2nd year college student
i am a 2nd year undergraduate BS Chemistry student. i was an exceptional high school chemist in our country, so i can say that i am a bit advanced when i started college. right now, we are currently on introduction to org chem but i have already read clayden, solomons, and mcmurry T___T so i kind of know it already. as time went on, i felt like i was doing nothing with the advanced knowledge i have in chemistry. i was suddenly inspired to start learning computational chemistry. i have started reading introduction to QM by griffiths and essentials of computational chemistry by Cramer. but i am having a hard time understanding concepts involving advanced mathematics especially in quantum mechanics so i got discouraged and kinda stopped reading for a bit. but now i want to continue it but i need some help. is what im reading and learning at this time the right thing? or am i reading too advanced stuff for me? where should i start and at what pacing? i really want a mentor but my professors in my universities are too busy to mentor. please suggest study plans as if you are mentoring me on computational chemistry.