u/Florigenica

I was a Prolifer for a long time, and I'm an artist. To this day, if you search up my name the results are a painting of fetal gore I made and another couple art pieces I did.

I'm not pro-life anymore so it really sucks that this is my digital footprint. 😅

Anyway, my most popular art pieces were my depictions of dead fetuses. Which is weird on its own. But there's art I still make which was and is really popular, I make fetal silhouettes out of dried flowers for bereavement families. When I started doing this I had a lot of requests from random pro-lifers to make them for decorating Pregnancy Crisis centres and Savannah Craven Antao commissioned some for her home decor.

She requested the commission, and then a few days later I cut my finger so deeply that I still don't have feeling back now and it's been ages. So I had to delay the completion of it because I couldn't be applying flowers and glue with a mangled finger. This took a while to heal and she was regularly being rude about me not making it quickly enough, and then demanded a refund after it had already been shipped. I am Canadian, the postal service was on strike, this was explained when she ordered from me. Literally every step of the way of making these art pieces for her was miserable, and I had given her a major discount to promote me on her pages.

Guess who never got any promotion after that whole ordeal? 🙃 but now I guess it's a good thing because there's less digital footprint.

Art is very undervalued by conservatives, so it makes sense that I was treated like a machine instead of a person so often.

Any time something controversial happened in regards to the topic I was getting requests to make anti-abortion propaganda content. I was stuck in a constant cycle of negativity all I took in was negative, and all i put out was negative. and I was wondering why I was so miserable all the time.

I make whatever I want now, and I'm pursuing a career in tattooing. I make pro-choice art occasionally too and it's liberating. I don't live under a magnifying glass constantly having anything I enjoy making criticized anymore. I don't have to maintain a "consistent aesthetic" or check any boxes anymore.

This would have never became my reality and I would have never been happy if I stayed in the anti-abortion movement. Being anti-abortion isn't compatible with being happy and healthy. I make these occasional posts about life outside of that cult because it's my hope that maybe someone will see this and feel motivated to get out of it before it's too late.

People in that space treat everyone like crap, especially each other.

Ew. Just ew.

Alobster Crawley was the size of a quarter when I got him a few weeks ago, so he sheds a lot. And every time I get a momentary fright lol

Last photo is him hiding in Squishy-Shelled Shame as he does after every shed.

Every time I talk about something fucked up that was done to me when I was in the anti-abortion movement or after leaving the response is always just "well she's mentally ill" or "she has BPD and that's why she hates us now, because she's splitting."

Mind you, I don't have BPD. I have never claimed to have BPD. I have mental health diagnosis, and none of them are personality disorders.

Blaming every thing that you don't like about me on "BPD" is just you demonstrating your own bias and ableism against people that do have BPD. And contributing to the stigmatization of that disorder.

I have struggled with my mental health. Especially when I was in the anti-abortion space, I've been out of it completely since December and have worked on unpacking everything around that time of my life. And I can proudly say that I am doing really well! Before I left I got on the appropriate medication and dosages to manage my disorders. It really helped me become balanced and motivated my desire to leave that space. I've been in therapy. And for the first time in my life I have a job, real life friends, and a life of my own. And hobbies that don't involve obsessing over other people's pregnancies and life choices. And it's wonderful! These people should really give it a try. You truly don't have time for obsessing over other people's lives when you're fully present in your own life. 💚

And idk how posting proof that I pretended to be happy about the painting and asked her to mail it to me is some "gotcha moment" when it just proves what I said, or claiming that because I myself made a mixed-media piece about that traumatic experience means it was okay for her to randomly make an art piece dedicated to the fetus I lost.

Anyway y'all, please don't go commenting or interacting with her on my behalf. It just makes her angry and obsessive again. She will never see that what she did was wrong, and no amount of criticism for her behavior will encourage her to apologize or understand.

I recognize that what I did in the past when I was in the anti-abortion space was wrong and inexcusable. I recognize that I was a bad person and I have taken steps to become a better version of myself and while that cannot undo the harm I did, I can, have, and will take steps to make positive changes that help instead of harm. I have apologized directly to anyone I remember hurting with my actions as an anti-abortion extremist.

I encourage any anti-abortion extremists to do the same. Stop what you're doing, assess the way you're hurting others, and take the appropriate measures to make amends and be better.

I'm just posting this because I've had a few people send me her posts today and I felt I needed to make a response to clear up any confusion and voice a little frustration 😅