Healing bad pick & removing scars?
Hey everyone. First time making a post on this sub. I’ve commented but I’m just now understanding how bad my skin picking actually is after reading some posts and realizing how similar our stories are.
Im in a really weird frame of mind right now with my skin and I don’t want to go out if I pick really badly. Nothing against anyone who has or knows someone with a drug problem, I can’t imagine what people go through, but sometimes I feel like I look like I pick my skin because of a drug addiction. I’m embarrassed for myself, I’m embarrassed for my fiancé. I get weird looks so I hide my face. I have a niece that asks me what happened to my face bc I have a bandaids on it and nephew that asks about my boo boos. My scabs and scars are embarrassing and I want to fix all of it.
I’ll start picking sometimes because of a tiny pimple, rough spot on my skin, or I’m tweezing hairs. Sometimes it’s a painful cyst that I can’t get to go away. I recently started taking medicine for my adhd again, so I’ve been noticing that it’s making me hyperfixate on my face more than usual. It’s almost always when I’m stressed and/or when my anxiety is bad. It’s ESPECIALLY when I eat poorly, which usually coincides with being stressed. Does anyone else find that dairy makes their skin worse?
I’ll wake up in the middle of the night and pick my face because I’m in a daze and I feel part of my face that hurts. My fiancé will have to wake me up and get me to stop. Sometimes I find myself at the mirror for an hour, only to stop because he sees me picking. Sometimes if he leaves the house I’ll tell myself I’m just tweezing my eyebrows and he comes home and I’m bleeding.
I’m currently trying to heal large wounds on my jawline, and chin. Usually they’re like 1/2 in diameter each and I don’t know how to clear them up. I use neosporin and put bandaids on at night so I don’t pick but it doesn’t do anything quick enough. The wounds turn into scabs and then I pick the scabs and it just doesn’t go away. It’s just a huge cycle at that point. I went to the dermatologist once for a cyst but I had picked at it so it was infected and the derm gave me a huge attitude and it scarred me (pun intended hehe) to the point that I’ve never been back to a derm.
I know makeup usually makes it look worse, but when I have events to go to and I don’t want people to see it, i usually put on foundation to make it look less red but then it just looks like makeup over a scab. I just want the scabs to go away so I can at least use makeup until it gets better.
I was doing so well for a while and then due to certain unforeseen circumstances I’m now in a short term but super stressful environment that I have to be in for a little bit and I just can’t get over this picking cycle.
TLDR;
Picking my face so badly I feel embarrassed to the point of not wanting to go out. I want to clear the scabs, get rid of the scars and fix my stress induced acne. Dermatologists scarred me and haven’t been back in years.
If anyone can please help with the following:
- ways to clear acne quickly, especially cysts that shouldn’t be popped bc they’re deep
- how to avoid picking / get out of picking hypnosis
- fully clear up scarring and face trauma
EDIT: Sorry if anyone saw my post or a similar one 4-5 times. It told me it wasn’t posting and now I’m embarrassed even more 😭