u/FluidBreadfruit2390

In my opinion it's this three below, they hold a lot of depth, carry a lot emotions but simultaneously are very precise, easy to understand and universaly relatable:

,,And I've been a forest fire
I am a forest fire
And I am the fire and I am the forest
And I am a witness watching it
I stand in a valley watching it
And you are not there at all''

''I bet on losing dogs
I know they're losing, and I'll pay for my place by the ring
Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down
I'll be there on their side
I'm losing by their side''

''I tried my hardest, for how do you learn
God's very simple and love doesn't burn
And maybe you'd offered me all that I yearned for
But I was still waiting for something to earn

Silly me, waiting''

Can you tell me what am I struggling with based on this description?: Sometimes my intuition ties itself to an object (or situation, behaviour etc.) and assigns to it a negative connotation; And from that point Im deadly afraid of using or associating myself with that object cause I know that a calamity will happen to me if I do. For example, Ive gone shopping and bought a new pair of boots. On the way home I got that weird feeling about them which made me believe that if I wear them I will be cursed and in near future ill lose my limb. I havent worn these boots even once since then and Im still strongly repulsed by them and wont wear them probably ever again. I have this feelings that my thoughts (especially bad ones) create my reality and that this intuition is a guide that tells me what to do and what not to do to keep me safe. I dont think that these are delusions cause I can be skeptical of my condition but its way stronger than me and I cant fight it