Issues with self esteem
So this gonna be a kinda awkward really sorry if i'm oversharing but i have to get this of my chest.
So first of all the reason i'm even talking about this here is my friends being really homophobic so i can't really talk about it with anyone in real life. With that out of the way imma start out with my problem. So basically i've been hiding away my sexuality for the past 5 years first due to bullying and later on because i was scared of being alone again. recently i've accepted who i am and that i'm not into girls but feminine boys. but my self esteem has really gotten low over the last years so i feel like i'm not wanted by anyone, especially femboys. i just feel like i'm kind of in that gray area not looking attractive to them.
So i'm rather short (5,2) and having a more lean body. I know this is kind of weird to share with strangers on the internet but i'm kind of in a weird spot rn so yeah