Days like Today
I just need to let this out, because anytime I mention it to anyone I know they invalidate my feelings. And my post got deleted because I’ve never posted & didn’t know to read rules :/ anyways.
I (24f) have always been the girl who never had a solid group of friends, or a solid friend to make memories with. High school sucked, as I was alone for all of it due to the fact everyone knew I was in an ongoing trial for being sexually abused.
I know, I have a few friends, and they’re great. But they’re either married & have kids, live whole ass countries away from me, or just never have the time to hangout.
I’ve always been the oddball out, not just because of my teenage past, but especially because I’m a musician and I’ve sang for basically my whole life. Everyone expects me to go so far, and I’m working on it but for example, before I released my last song I maybe talked to 2 people outside of my parents, my brothers and my boyfriend.
Now everyone wants to talk to me again.
I’m happy they’re listening and sharing, that’s great.
I’ve just always been the person people reach out to when they need something or something in my music happens and they wanna be there for it.
The one friend I’ve made the past year is probably one of the best friends I’ve ever had, but she’s moving back to her home state which is 14 hours away. I’m so happy for her because she’s happy to be there & be with her family again. We’ll still be great friends, it just sucks.
My boyfriend is a great man & he’s always there for me, and we do majority of things together.
Idk what I’m on here to say, maybe I’m just rambling because I always do that.
I’m just sad. And it’s such a beautiful day out.
I wish I had friends to share it with.
And I’m just terrible at making new friends.
So here’s to a beautiful day, I’m probably going to continue reading my book.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far.