My relationship
Lately I’ve been struggling with constant doubts in my relationship, even though I don’t want to break up with my boyfriend. My brain keeps telling me maybe I don’t really love him or that something must be wrong, and I end up checking my feelings all the time , like whether I feel “enough,” whether I get butterflies, or whether a random gut feeling means something. I overthink normal thoughts and questions like “Am I attracted to him?” or “Do I really want a future with him?” until they feel overwhelming. I also overanalyze interactions with other people and worry that being friendly means something more or that I’m somehow doing something wrong. Any small doubt makes me panic and feel like the relationship must be doomed, even though ending it isn’t what I want. Sometimes it's "I want to spend the rest of my life with that man" and sometimes its " What if I can't do this. I don't know why it's happening and I read things about ocd. Could it be that? Could it only be anxiety? I genuinely don't know what to do, and writing on reddit is my last ressource..