AITA for accepting a pretend drunk kiss from my friend
I (21F) recently went to my friend/roommate’s (21F) birthday party with my boyfriend (21M). We have been dating for almost a year and I am straight which he knows. Both me and my friend were quite drunk, and I ended up going up to my friend and hugging her. After that, she jokingly pursed her lips and went to kiss me and I pursed my lips back (didn’t think we’d actually kiss) but our lips touched in front of everyone who laughed. My boyfriend looked at me and immediately left the room.
I tried talking to him, but he yelled at me and said that I cheated on him and the thought of kissing me now disgusts him. We had a big argument and I cried a lot and he threatened to break up with me saying that my actions have consequences. Lots of hurtful words were said on his end, and on my end I (regretfully) said he was acting incredibly immature and insecure since I was very fed up (he has had lots of trust issues with me, banning me from speaking to guy friends and hanging out with friends, drinking without him, etc.).
I tried to explain that it wasn’t because I was out-of-control drunk, but that I genuinely didn’t see what was wrong with it at the moment since I wasn’t hiding anything and he has been jokingly “touchy” and makes jokes about his male friends all the time as well. I tried to say that I am sorry for making him uncomfortable as that is never my intention, that I genuinely did not know, and that I promise I won’t do it again and knowing his perspective I now view it as wrong, etc. He said I should automatically know that it is wrong to kiss someone else despite having different upbringings and now he thinks I’ve done way more behind his back and can never trust me again (yelling at me).
I’ve sincerely apologized multiple times, but have tried to ask him to also talk maturely about it and really tried to have him understand my point of view given we never spoke of that boundary before. Lots of other stuff happened but this is the crux of the trust issues and he has brought it up every day since saying how he doesn’t trust nor care about me whatsoever anymore since I disrespected him.
I’m not sure what else I can do to make it up for him and he makes me feel like I’m a horrible human for this mistake (which I understand the mistake was really really bad.) So, AITA?