Changing my Identity
I learned about the Law of Assumption in my sophomore year in an attempt to manifest an SP. Since then I’ve had 15 SPs and i’ve never successfully shifted to the reality where i’m with them. Matter of fact I’ve somehow successfully manifested them choosing some one else every time like clock work. Even when it’s not intentional. Even when i think I’ve worked on my self concept, even when i think i believe deep down i’m chosen, they choose someone else.
Like currently i have this guy i wanted to be in a relationship with and we were basically in one minus him not committing. I told him i’m not trying to get less than i deserve and i wasn’t allowing him that level of access to me if he doesn’t want a relationship. We stopped talking and yesterday while hanging out with friends I found out he has a new girl. At this point i have no idea what to do. I think i’m in the new identity but clearly i’m not if this guy is choosing someone else. I know the Law is about oneself and not anything external but i’m changing my self and nothing else is changing. I really just want to give up because constantly watching someone not choose you really get damaging after awhile but is this all i’ll ever know? No matter how much i affirm, no matter how much i visualize is this all i’ll achieve?