Please help me, help my child.
Trigger warning ‼️ Turning to Reddit, because I feel like everything else I’ve tried has failed me. For context, my dad and I both are bipolar. We’ve just managed to cope and get through life- though it can be really tough. I was SA’d as a teen due to putting myself in risky situations, and gave birth to my son who is now 10.
My son has had symptoms of bipolar since he was born. We’ve gotten every diagnosis under the sun… autism, adhd, unspecified mood disorder, dmdd. I was a teacher and went back to college to take more classes focusing on psychology, child development and mental health to make sure I knew everything I needed to help my son. I have tried every parenting method known to man. We have tried countless therapies, acute hospitalization, mood stabilizers…
Flash forward to now and I can’t be near my son without him abusing me. He cusses me out, punches me in the face, throws things at me, threatens to kill me, punches out my windows. Honestly I’ve always just taken it and continued to do what I could to help him. But now it’s also progressed to him hurting his younger brother, fighting law enforcement to the point of needing sedation, etc. He is currently staying with my parents because he immediately attacks me anytime I am near, even if I’m trying to do something with him that I know he enjoys. Idk what to do. I know he will snap out of it in about a month, but I’m growing very exhausted of this never ending cycle and nobody helping. What did you do that finally made people see you, give you the correct diagnosis, and provide you with help??
Please.. it’s 1am after Mother’s Day and I just want my baby home. How do I help him? I feel like nobody wants to help us. The doctors just keep telling me to wait until he’s 12 and then he can be put into juvenile detention. I don’t want him to go into juvenile detention!!! I want my sweet boy to stay present.
I’m sure what I wrote doesn’t even sound coherent. But I’m hoping somebody has some sort of advice that will at least give me another avenue to pursue. I know you can’t give medical advice… but just hoping for anecdotal experiences that might help. Thank you 💔