I suffer from hypersexuality, and I feel so guilty for it.
I suffered sex*al trauma a few years ago that led me to develop hypersexuality, where I can get intense uncontrollable desires that can affect my day-to-day life. I have been trying so hard to not fall into any sin, I've been trying for years. I know masturbation is haram, I know an*l is haram even between spouses, but I just can't help it.
I feel so guilty everytime, I always make sure I pray and make tawbah, but I still feel so guilty.
Lately, I have gone through a 'break up' there was a girl that we both had the intention of getting married in a halal way, and after a lot of planning and a lot of effort that was put into it, we called it all off, and ever since then my hypersexuality became even worse than before, it was already really bad before, and now its just constant.
I was looking for a scholarly opinion that would allow me to give in to desires, but I just felt so guilty. I usually follow the majority of scholars, looking for a minority felt so weird and full of shame.
I'm too broke to go to therapy, and the therapy offered at my university isn't designed for these cases. I don't know what to do.