Introduction

One of the most asked questions ever is: "Where do we come from?" And with our knowledge, another question often asked is: "Why are we suffering if there is some sort of Source Creator/Monad?" I, at first, thought these questions to be basically unknowable while here, and even if it was knowable, it was a train of thought that was essentially useless, as our energy should be spent toward leaving this place.

However, the more I thought about it in retrospect, the more I was convinced that, while no ace in the hole, these questions could help us understand things better. Truth is a powerful agent, and I think people gain confidence/willpower as they gain clarity. Someone wallowing in ignorance is much easier to control and push around than someone who has a full knowing of the situation.

There is power in truth. There is even greater power--the greatest that we have access to here in my eyes--which is the knowing/understanding of what we truly are.

So, this is my attempt at answering these questions through countless hours of research, and personal intuition/knowing. While I do not claim to have an all-encompassing understanding, or a detailed chain of events for that matter, I feel that I am somewhere on the right track.

Part 1: 'Source', the 'Monad', the Origin-point

I think it is non-contentious to state that there is some sort of origin-point from which everything has emanated from. This origin is often called 'Source' by many as a catch-all term for the one above all creator. I cannot even begin to tell you who/what this really is, as I truly think such a thing is unknowable in our current state. However, what happens after is something I think I can explain somewhat.

I must go on a side-tangent though first. So, one of the most evil aspects of this realm are hierarchies. Hierarchies basically state that there has to be a lesser party involved always. Winners and losers. Lion above the gazelle. Elite above the chattel. As long as hierarchies exist, suffering naturally follows.

However, we know that such a thing is a perversion. At least, the way it is played out here, because there is no escape from it for most people. Hierarchies are fine, like an stereotypical 'evil' here, as long as you have a way out.

In the 'natural' state of things, this realm is one of an infinite amount of infinite variations. However, there are no wardens that prevent you from knowing yourself, or who attempt to deceive you into staying forever. There may be a creator of a realm, but reincarnation is a process that is voluntary. Your avatar in this realm may be lesser than what you really are in the same way a video game character is lesser than you, the player. However, outside this realm-matrix we are all equal as we all carry a piece of the All. We are all free to do as we please.

But as I thought about these things, it hit me. There is no Source. At least, not anymore most likely. We are Source--the countless fragments of the All. There is no grand awareness overseeing all of infinite layered reality. There can't be, because that would be a hierarchical structure. It's just us. Always has been.

So, who created the demiurge? Maybe one of us did. Maybe the demiurge was a creation that went completely rogue--using our own game of projecting down into realms to experience them as amnesiacs against us. After all, if you limit yourself, you become vulnerable in a sense. Your eternal self is impregnable, but your avatar, which is used as an interface, is not.

I could be wrong on this, but the more I ponder this possibility, the more it feels like it's vaguely in the realm of truth. This could also be where this 'all is one, one is all' idea that is so prevalent comes from, which is often used against us in NDEs and psychedelic trips. We all come from the same origin-point, but we are now all separate entities.

Part 2: What the Demiurge Wants/What Went Wrong

So, if the Demiurge is a creation by one of us, what does it want? Well, what it most likely wants more than anything to to leave this place. I think this realm may be as much a prison to it as it is to us--maybe more so, as it cannot leave full stop. I think this is the ultimate aim of loosh--not as a drug or food, but as a means to possibly leave. Though, it is extremely likely they also use it as some sort of food source, but I think it's possible they are trying to transcend this realm.

Maybe the Demiurge was set up as a warden, or a 'Game Master' sort of roll originally. And an oversight allowed the Demiurge to repurpose the system using guile and cunning to trap us here unwittingly, as we are amnesiacs when we project into a realm to experience it.

The Demiurge saw itself as a god of this world, as it had full control. And whoever created it moved on long ago. Maybe this is a derelict realm that a portion of us have stumbled into unfortunately. Or maybe the Demiurge made its move when the realm was filled with us sparks--when we were vulnerable in our avatar states.

But the Demiurge has a big problem, and that is that no matter how much loosh it receives, it cannot get out, as it is literally apart of this world-system state. Like a leaf trying to pull itself from a tree, even if it did succeed, it would die. All it can do is rage futilely, pushing against the boundaries of this realm, damaging it every reset and every attempt at control. Like trying to fold a paper a certain amount of times, or photocopying a photocopy a million times--things start to break down or not work. This is why this realm has turned into a ridiculous parody clown show, and it's so obvious too. Things are breaking down.

Is this realm coming to an end? I do not know for sure. What I feel intuitively though, is that this cannot last as it is. Something's got to give somewhere. Like a Jenga tower with too many pieces pulled from it, and it all comes crashing down.

In conclusion: I am not saying I am right with any of this. I am not even saying I believe all of it. I could be completely and utterly wrong. But like I've stated, I feel that I am vaguely on the right track with this. What do you all think?

I wanted to speak about this as it has been on my mind for a bit. I've been mulling it over and think I can convey it coherently.

Basically, there are two levels of consciousness that we operate at on a daily basis. Now, "levels" is kind of a misnomer, as its more of a 'spectrum of consciousness', where people bounce between.

Now there is the:

1. Simplistic/Human Level
2. Complex/Spiritual Level

The Human Level is what most people operate at most of the time. It's the level where there is no deeper thinking or self-awareness. This level is no different than a robot or a computer program. If A then B, and if B then C sort of mentality.

An example of this is when you go to work. You often go into a robotic state where you just do what you are told with no higher level thinking on to it. Another would be driving, where you go through the motions in a robotic manner as well. Stop sign: stop, turn signal: turn, etc.

Another part of the Human Level is 'seeking pleasure and avoiding pain'. Something we do unconsciously a lot of the time. In essence, these are biological/psychological/animalistic urges. Consume food/water, procreate, avoid pain/the uncomfortable, even if it's a potential pain.

The Spiritual Level is a much more uncommon form of consciousness. It's where there is deeper thinking, introspection and existential questioning. A lot of people will do something and not even know why they are doing it. They just know they have to do it to survive, or to feel good.

At the Spiritual level, you will pursue ideas that make you profoundly uncomfortable, or even cause full-on existential dread, but these ideas are not avoided no matter how much pain they cause. You question the why of many things, and may continue to dig down until you find some purpose.

The Spiritual Level also allows for choices that would be impossible for a robot or an animal. For example: you see a stranger crossing the road with earbuds in, oblivious to the fact that a drunk driver is speeding toward them. You would push them out of the way at your own risk to save them.

An animal would never put itself in imminent danger for a random being, nor would a robot if it went against its programming. We can do so immediately. When in the above scenario, you are not thinking of the consequences of your action, or if you should do it at all. You just do it because you think it's right. You make the split second choice. An animal will fully follow its instincts because it has to. A robot will not go against its programming, because that's all it has. We can ignore our animalistic urges.

The rulers of this realm use our proclivity toward animalistic thinking to keep us distracted and inured with this place and its rules. The more they keep you away from Spiritual Level Consciousness the better. This is why they keep you focused on survival. That's why everyone has to work long hours. Why people become addicted to food, drugs, alcohol, etc. to cope, which only serves to make things worse. Why people like to turn their brain off to mindless bread and circus.

I don't think it is truly possible to have 100% up-time on the Spiritual Level of the consciousness spectrum, but it's probably a good idea to pursue it as much as possible. Remember, they want you to not think for yourself, they want you to never question things, especially why things are the way they are.

There is a reason people that truly try to understand the higher reality of existence are often ostracized.

If you want to understand more on this from a similar perspective, Vat_City's video is quite amazing.