Online grooming
A few months back when I was 15 I was very active on reddit, one day I got a random dm from someone named “lonewolf” something and they first started off as a friendly person who just wanted to make friends and then he started dirty talking and yk blabla. At first I refused to engage in dirty talks and s*xting because i felt uncomfortable. He initially told me he was 19 and was from ____ country and he also sent me a photo. I blocked him the next day but I had talked to him for so long that I had gotten attached and though I knew these people were just liars and liked to trick girls I deluded myself into thinking he was different and the very next day added him again and after that he started sexting with me and I ended up liking it and then days later I even sent him my pictures (not nudes). He also sent “his”. I did once comment on our age gap being big and he said “its only 4 years” and I kind of agreed with him because my parents also have a 7 year age gap though they met when they were in their late thirties but anyways we carried on s*xting and dirty talks. He also asked for n*des many times but I always refused due to which he would get upset and would leave me on read. He would also asks me to send my full body pics but I never did. Whenever I sent him a photo of me he would only make comments on my chest on how my br***ts were too small. The things he said during s*xting were very disgusting (even though I did it too but I feel like him doing it is worse because he knew I was a minor while he was a fullass adult himself). He would ignore me alot because I wasnt good enough like his other hoes on reddit who would send him nudes and sh. I wanted to mostly talk about love and he almost convinced me into eloping with him and marrying him. We discussed our future and everything and our future plans i was so fucking stupid and delusional 😭. Whenever hed ignore me i would cry and started self harming. He did show care sometimes but he only did that to make me stay with him even more. I did try to leave many times but he would guilt trip me “I didnt sleep for days when u blocked me” and blablabla. Anyways after all this i downloaded discord and got distracted over there and stopped texting this c*nt and after a few days he messaged me saying “u dont miss me dont u” i dont rlly know what happened after that but he ended up admitting that he lied about his nationality,career and age (THIS POS WAS 23). I ended up blocking him and this son of a b*tch had the audacity to say “we can still be friends” LIKE HELL NOOO.
I know I shouldve been smart enough but from age 7 Ive been going to an all girls school and never rlly interacted with men except for my relatives so I guess I got excited when receiving male attention even if it was really bad. I got judged alot online when I shared this story with others and some refused to acknowledge I was groomed and many said that I knew everything yet chose to play dumb. Which makes me wonder was i groomed or not?