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I guess I just feel like venting to those who will understand. I am talking to such a great person, who not only meets but exceeds all my expectations, and I really like him. But instead of letting that be the line to hold when I am apart from him, my brain goes into the loop of being desperate to hear from him and then horrified when I realize I have feelings for him. I’ve been working on myself for years and am able to recognize the patterns, but I just can’t break them fully yet, and it frustrates me. I’m tired of being this way. I feel really envious of secure people.